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Their words were disingenuous. Dripping with desire. Oozing with intention. They made her cringe and retreat in the opposite direction of their manipulations. She felt it in the tension in her back, in the slight urge to vomit, in the urge to hide. She wouldn't smile in return, or feign pleasure. What did they want? What did their slippery smiles try to elicit? She wouldn't give it to them, and so they called her a bitch. -j

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Looking for the T[ea] said…
Ooh, this bites in a sassy, self-assured way. Painful but also proud.
December 14, 2023 at 1:35 PM
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